Head low and powder dry

I am calling bullshit my friends, I can't believe how easy it was for our enemy to lock us down, I am starting to believe that Q  was a limited hangout, something to pacify all those with the wherewithal and gumption to stand up and fight these evil scum. Now, where are the arrests? Armed forces mobilized against you! In case you get out of hand. we have let the the nwo win without a shot. Nice. Enjoy the tribulation. we could have been so much more.

that my eyes may see

Greetings again fellow travelers, I feel the need to once again share my thoughts with this imaginary audience, at least unburden my mind from the sticky musings that chain me to this current existence in the hopes of breaking them from repeated effort. you might detect my feelings of fatalistic surrender to these times of unwinding, as our civilization continues to devolve and sink into soul sickness and materialistic fervor. Days like this I must retreat and so I shall.

My mind has been chewing on this cosmic game of gotcha, this charade of life in which we are taught that we are here for learning and growth. That the trials and suffering we must endure are for our own good. We are taught that we must find the path back to god and endure this misery with a smile to reap eternal blessing in some future life that is veiled from our knowing. That we can seek and find the answers by divine intervention and if we don't the fault is solely ours for not being good enough, or some other myriad reason that is delivered by some supposed authority who needs our obedience to their way, and some money, never forget that gods kingdom needs our money. Which in reality is our time and effort, we trade our life in 8 hour increments for the ability to exist here, to participate in this game.And if we don't play by these rules we are told in no uncertain terms that the penalty will be a forever separation from god,family,friends,happiness and growth, to be replaced by the torment of knowing we didn't live good enough to meet the standard of a being who is harder to find than Bigfoot. I wonder sometimes why god allows so many religions and philosophies, why confusion reigns in the hearts and souls of his beloved children.

We are born to an earthly mother, and in most cases this comes with a family, this family usually lives by other families and that we call a neighborhood. Many times this neighborhood is in a village or town or city with many other families. And many times there is a consensus of what is good and bad, we usually share many common beliefs of who god is and what he wants. We worship together on the chosen day, together we are a community. So it follows that we are born into a certain belief system, catholic, christian, muslim hindu, budest, all are very different, each requiring certain ways of living. The kaleidoscope of humanity has so many different ways to approach the divine. Each belief system posits that "they" are the true and correct way for eternal salvation, and that following or believing any other way just can't get you to heaven. Each one of the multitude of systems each with it's offshoots and denominations have the only true religion, and as I have stated we are born into this man made spiritual slavery. Spin the will and make your choice, its only your eternal life, forever happiness and bliss, or eternal misery, so don't fuck it up.

As my spiritual quest for answers brought me to the understanding that belief systems and religions were man made because why would one god have so many different religions? I am not saying that there is not good to be found in them, I'm not tossing the baby out with the bath water, all of them have much good about them for personal and spiritual growth as we perceive it, however the fatal flaw in each is the belief that they are the only way and that all others are wrong. I get it, you wouldn't get many converts if you waffle on this doctrine, and by denying being the only true church you lose your only tool to force obedience from the members which is fear, fear of being wrong in the most important decision you could ever make. Hence this game of gotcha.

So the search continues for me, with the understanding that the only way to find god is to let god find you. My wife calls this arrogance on my part, to want god to show me what i need to know, she is totally pissed that I can't shut up and go along to get along, she is fully indoctrinated in the belief that I must follow her belief before I can be told by god of its' truth, so there is a little tension in our relationship at this point. Perhaps i am being arrogant to believe that the creator of all would deign to show this average man anything, maybe she is right. But that doesn't sway me from my path of search for meaning, the search for the only thing with meaning. God, are you listening ?

this is gonna hurt

Hey o my internet friends,  long time no see, i sat down today and read my last few posts, and I hate to tell you "I told you so", lmao. However being right doesn't make up for us living in a deeper point of slavery to the machine. Hows your life going beneath that thin veneer of normalcy we all try to portray to the outside world? Not so funny now is it. The jackbooted overlords have just had a stomping party is how I see it, in my own state after passing by popular vote for prop 2 the governor called into session a special session to write a new law in its place,the very first day, really? So our vote counted for squat. Thats how it works my friend in these last days.I told you so.

Do you want to see whats next, open your eyes, this creeping behemoth of conformity is at your door right now, this very day. This cancerous growth of luciferian materialism is going to smash us down in short order, mark my words.The hordes of murderous orcs now stalk the land, who will do anything they can to take what they want from whoever they want, whenever they want. You can be immediately censored for an unpopular opinion, castigated by the world for trying to protect the ones you love from the flood of filth spewing from the sewer of main stream media nowadays. How does it feel to be that battery in the matrix? Are you being a good cog in the machine today? The slave chains we wear everyday may not show to mortal eyes but they are there none the less. You my friend, are earners for hell, paying every day for the right to be a slave, and so am I, a man has to eat right?

New year new me right? follow the herd. What is it this year; keto, vegan, flat earther? Whats cool for this coming year? I guess we are for war now, but if we hurt anybody we should pay for it right? I could fill this page with question mark what the fucks! Pedophilia is a sexual orientation now, and shouldn't be discriminated, slandered, made to feel ashamed, WHAT THE FUCK!!! Full stop,fuck that! I draw the line, rip some filthy lucre out of my check to pay for some bullshit war in a place that has stuff you want but don't want to pay for, fine. Rah, rah America, Run a new freeway off ramp through my neighborhood, hey man, that's progress. But touch my children and I swear to god I will put you in the dirt for good!

The fight is now on my friends, we have had warning, so many warnings, from the earliest writings of our history, from every flavor and color of humanity we have been warned. And now it is upon us. Take care my friends, I have no idea how things will roll but my hackles are up, spidey sense tingling that wont go away. May we all receive what we have earned, down to the last jot and tittle of the law, then mercy of the divine be applied. This current test is hard, so hard, but be of good cheer, there is a plan, and I encourage you to find it, search hard and deep, ask for help from those who care. Me? Still shaking it here Boss.

divide we must

Fellow travelers I have had an epiphany. For the 17years or so of my internet presence I have encouraged love  unity and tolerance. I am wrong, I have deluded myself that if we could come together as one, races, creeds, and colors we could build a utopia together. In truth as I see it now that is totally impossible, a Pollyanna daydream, and unworkable. We are not brothers and sisters, but only rival clans fighting for supremacy in a dying world. All that brotherly love that has been spoon fed to us from birth has made us weak, the love one another line inbedded in world religions and cultures have immobilized our survival instinct when we are under attack from those who have no such moral restraint.

We are all under attack from the anti life brigade, if you breathe, and love you are the enemy. If you can still excite your brain cells to make any kind of coherent connection, and want with all your heart for the human race to enjoy those unattainable emotions of love, peace, and security, you are under attack and vastly outnumbered by the army of the spiritually dead. If you have payed attention the zombie apocalypse has already begun. We humans have been divided by those who hate life into bite size pieces, and the rider on the pale horse now stalks the land.

The war began long before I ever took a breath, the endgame was planned on a plane of vibration I still cannot see, The game of life was rigged, and we, well we will pay the price with our weak mortal flesh and human longings. I am not so sure at this point if it could happen any other way, I am such a minuscule point in the continuum that surely my desires and work have had no meaning in the end.

I am a white man, heterosexual, monogamous, and proud of it. I served in my countries armed forces for 18 years until I saw the writing on the wall and quit in disgust. I have tried to support my family as the monied elite made it impossible, I have served in my chosen religion until the little faith I had was exhausted and reality took hold. I have used my mind to try and find a way around the steaming pile of shit that calls itself history, I have tried to find my place in the economic slavery that is required to live in the land of the free and been tossed out of jobs because I refuse to be a slave. And I am done , truly done with this bullshit.

Find your clan, it is that simple, find the people with similar beliefs and understanding. The fight for survival is now world wide, we could strike the root of our enemy and kill the small group of people who have brought us to this point, but then we would be called rascist and anti semetic  and that is just the worst. You fucking craven cowards. We have let the camels nose in the tent, and they in turn have pushed us out of our heritage. The subhuman elite who are mostly aski nazis from the black sea area, who are not even close to semitic run the world, and in the desire to show tolerance and love we have given them succor, but they have no love for anyone else but their own clan. They are coming for you next, after they finish off us white heterosexuals, mark my words. We can never co exist, the flames of hatred for anyone different are now the bonfire that will consume the world. we are well and truly divided as a species now, the endgame is upon us, checkmate.

I will not close with a plea for unity, I don't want you sniveling cowards near me, keep on sucking the devils cock you have been slavering on until its your turn to take the load in your face, because it's coming. I am disgusted  by what my country has become, to think I spent almost twenty years willing to give my life for you to spit on me because of my life style helps me to cut the cord with all you freaks. Find your clan and prepare for the fight for your life. God will judge us all.

Life is a beach

I know that I am wasting some of the precious time I have left in this world to sit at my computer this morning to express some thoughts about the circus that threatens our very existence. Few people will read this post, fewer still will read between the lines and suss the intent, futile effort on my part, and quite likely adding to the clamor and thrashing of a dying beast. But hey, we all get our fifteen minutes right.

Right now brothers and sisters the elite have control, I am not sure when the humans lost the fight to bring to pass a society that allows each one of us to succeed in our individual way, to explore our highest levels of being, share our talents with the rest of us, to find joy and happiness and contentment with our allotted time here on earth. There are many around me who are still oblivious that this war ever took place. Some few have enough truth to point to this event, or that person, and say,"here is where we went wrong". But rest assured that the fight for truth, justice and freedom is over.

The maelstrom of the material world has sucked everyone of us into the abyss. It does not matter who is president, senator, congress weasel, mayor, because the system itself is wrong. The game is rigged silly, its all a show designed for your entertainment as your soul is harvested for some infernal power. Sure, go ahead and play with all of your heart, mind, and strength, be invested with the idea that you can win, or make some difference in the world. You might as well go to the seashore and push against the tide to show the mighty ocean who is boss.sucker.

The only true choice you can make happens deep inside yourself, you can only change you, and that dear friends is a herculean effort. I know, for these long years I have been trying, and trying, and trying. The amount of my perceived success could be held within a thimble. Honestly I have made no such gain. But I wonder sometimes if the effort has somehow forged the steel of my intent to keep trying. Or I could just be hardheaded because I desire to be a better human and be a child that God can be proud of.

We can help one another if we could drop the labels that are dividing us, replace the frothing at the mouth hatred for a tiny dash of love, and maybe even a sprinkle of understanding. Or we can be sands in the hourglass of finality and finish tearing apart this world, leaving nothing for those to come. Choose this day whom you will serve, it is your only choice.

On my walk this morning...

Fuck! Are you watching this shit! It is un-fucking believable where we find ourselves and our country! I am in a constant state of wtf, I shit you not. I am frankly ashamed that we have to have this conversation. You and I are both the children of God, we were created in his image. But in nature and in our humanity there is diversity, multi colored and resplendent. We are all equal, and whenever someone says they are more equal than others animal farm style they should be quarantined and contained as quickly as possible. Whenever one of you motherfuckers decide that I should conform to your twisted sense of society and demand that I should tolerate filth, I strongly decline.

So should you for that matter. We are in this together, it is up to us to fix it. Hillary and her husband have shown time and again what they are, the most evil and depraved beings drawing breath on this planet. There is nothing they wont do to drink from the fountain of power, me first always. Trump is their friend look at all the photos and communication between them( google it fucker, I am not your research assistant ;)  We are between a rock and a hard place my friend. At a time when we as human beings should rise up as one, we are arguing about bathrooms?  We have people who think that they should be paid money from the rest of us because of something happened to their ancestors should be paid in full today like the few survivors of the holocaust( once again, find out for yourself) and the Americans who think that because someones great granddaddy did something to theirs I owe them. Folks, this fight is not between you and me, frankly I don't give a fuck that a man likes another or females the same way, boy, girl, black, red, yellow white it don.t matter, but those demon fuckers who are killing us do. That is where the fight is. I wake up early every day to read the bullshit of life, most times it brings a chuckle, or a grin because I find it amusing how the media celebrates the worst our species has to offer. But the poison they are force feeding us now has brought me to a state of profanity.

The man, who I call out in all his forms and masks( there are so many I will not list them, that is up to you to decide for yourself at this point) is on the warpath, he knows the time is short. Why else would they foul their nest with radiation( just look at Fukushima and Hanford), chemtrails, gmos, and poison water,pharmaceutical homicide, vaccines and cancer, we are in the crosshairs as a group of batteries, they have no humanity and don't plan on hanging out as your family starves see Venezuela , get back in line slave.

If we play the game they have given us we are doomed.Fuck them, think for yourself, think about the world we are leaving for our children, this very idea is what matters, if we cant get along we will tear this world to pieces.

chaos as a life choice

Like sands through an hourglass so are the lies falling away, spiraling back down to the infernal realm in which they are birthed. I see the world paradigm shift in miraculous ways when I am paying attention, and fortunate enough to be tuned in to a degree, although spiritually painful to view, and be party to the end of the world as we believed it to be . In olden days I would have been a hermit, recluse or mountain man because I find it so hard to deal with people in these so called modern days. We are worse humans than those from the past, as I view it in my perspective, after watching the world with some intensity for the time I have been here, a half century shortly. My friends and teachers from the previous generation who I have learned  so much from, as they have shared their knowledge and wisdom have given way to the current generation of beings who choose to be nothing more than batteries in the matrix, caring nothing for mother earth who gives us form nor for her husband who gives us spirit. People are choosing to live a virtual life through social media, reclined in the la-z-boy office chair zoning at a constantly refreshing computer screen, allowing their mind to stimulate the organs of life on zero pretext of any kind of reality. Where was I?

I describe myself as a white hetero man, monotheistic, born and raised mormon, former military, semi educated. I may not have the right credentials according to some, to comment on anything according to our present illusory construct we call society, but that's ok because I don't recognize those imitators of life either. I figure I am a free man, I will go along(to some degree) to get along but with people these days who desire to attempt to convince me of how to feel, or to accept their world view, most times at the point of a metaphorical sword, meaning to conform to "their" pc garbage. Nope, not this guy. Not anymore, not ever again. If life is about choices, then maybe it's time to chose me. I choose me over any bullshit construct that was mentally created before I had ability to chose. I revoke any supposed rights or privileges imagined by the imaginary "state" that "they" believe I gave them. I am accommodating, I will go along until they choose to impose their "pursuit of happiness" on me.

 When did we as humans need so many damn labels to help us know who we are? really? Is the duck face our new understanding of beauty? Our synthetic society destroys the beauty of the creation, and all the possibility's it brings, it tries to ape the natural grace and splendor we could have if we choose to make a different choice other than the false right left bullshit we are subject to by our supposed rulers.

I am.

f n funny considering


RIP brother,godspeed 
  this is a good song too

a sermon from our departed brother